Part 6 of 9
In 1985 my Chinese Teacher began teaching me the more advanced levels of Life Energy Flow Tai Yi. This presented the opportunity to work on many different people, from all walks of life. It seemed every time I worked on someone, I would have a new set of questions for my teacher. People with the same issues seemed to come in groups, as if they were presenting me with issues to study. After each encounter with a particular group of consciousness, my teacher would work with me to develop a deeper understanding of the issue and how it developed.
During this time, the group consciousness seemed to be denial of healing. On my next visit with my teacher in the sacred cave he said, “No Tai Yi lessons today, we go for walk and we talk.”
We walked down the mountain side to a large, flat rock overlooking a beautiful lake. The rock was surrounded by many lavender colored flowers, while a gentle breeze filled the air with their fragrance. In his broken English he said, “I teach you denial. What you see around you?”
I answered, “I see the lake, flowers, and trees. I see much beauty.”
“You close eyes,” he said.
I closed my eyes and heard a strange sound, not unlike someone scratching their fingernails on a chalk board. “Now you open eyes.”
I opened my eyes and was shocked to see a very different scene. The lake was gone and in its place were mounds of trash. The trees and flowers were gone, dried out soil surrounded the rock we were sitting on. The only thing that looked the same was the flat rock. “How did you do this?” I asked.
“I not do this; you do this with your brain. I put belief of denial in your brain, so this what you see.”
“Were the lake, trees, and flowers real?” I asked.
“What real? What you want to be real?” he asked.
“Beauty,” I said.
“You close eyes now.”
I closed my eyes and heard a sound like water in a creek, flowing over rocks. “You open eyes now.”
I opened my eyes and the lake, trees, and flowers were back as it was before. “So what was real?” I asked again.
“What real to the heart is this,” pointing his hands to the lake, trees, and flowers.
“So why did the other image seem real?”
“Because it real to ones who carry denial of healing.”
I was beginning to see the picture he painted for me. Those in denial, see a very different reality than those who do not carry denial. “So ones who are in denial of healing, do not see what needs to be healed,” I answered.
“Yes, many walk about in secret pain.”
“Secret pain?” I asked.
“Yes, secret to them. One will carry pain and denial of healing, and not know consciously they are in pain,” he explained.
“Would they feel anything?”
“Yes, they feel hopelessness, depression, fear, and anger; therefore that is what they experience. That experience became real to them, just as the trash and sand with no trees and no flowers became real to you. I give the belief of denial to your brain, so you see what others see and feel. They not know what is real,” he said.
“So this is just like what the reporter told me a few weeks ago.”
He smiled and said, “Yes.”
I had thought back a few weeks ago, when I was interviewed by a reporter. He had just returned from Montana, doing an article on a series of cattle mutilations occurring there. The reporter shared with me the interview he did with a veterinarian, who was called out to many different locations where cattle had been mutilated. The reporter told me at the end of the interview, he asked the veterinarian if he thought UFO’s were involved. The veterinarian thought for a few minutes and said, “No, I cannot allow myself to believe this.”
“What do you mean?” he asked.
The veterinarian said, “If a UFO landed in front of me and I could walk up and touch it, I would have to deny its existence.”
“Why?” the reporter asked.
“If I allow myself to believe in such a thing, I would have to deny just about everything I believe in. It would shatter my life. I could not allow this. So no, UFO’s were not involved.” I shared this with my teacher and he just smiled, as usual he already knew of my experience.
“Denial of healing is very predominating in your world. Yes, many may come to ease pain, but even the pain is not the real pain, but referred pain. That way, no healing occurs. Look at your teacher, the Jonah. He teach a subject and how often do the ones who need to learn it the most, are the ones who are not there learning. Many in their denial do not see this; they see a different reality, a different world.”
Just at that time, I thought of a man who came to see me about a month before. My teacher smiled and said, “Yes, perfect example.”
The man, I will call George, came to me for headaches. When he laid on the massage table face down, I saw the back of his neck. He had a large, black growth on his skin, which looked much like skin cancer. “Do you have skin cancer?” I asked.
“No, why would you ask?”
I said, “There is a large, black growth on the back of your neck.”
“There is not.” He put his hand on the spot and said, “I do not feeling anything,” when obviously the dark skin was very rough.
“Go in the bathroom and look in the mirror,” I said.
He got up, looked in the mirror and came back saying he could not see anything. I asked my teacher if I was seeing something in the future and he said no. He indeed had skin cancer, but would not see it or feel it, he was in denial.
“How does one know they are in denial?” I asked.
“They need one who is not in denial to point it out. Sometimes they will listen, sometimes they will not. Sometimes they wait for the pain to be great, before they search,” he said. “I now go eat my rice. You go home.”
“Is that all you eat?”
He laughed and said, “That all I eat, when that is what I like to eat. Health start here,” pointing to his head, “not here,” pointing to his stomach…Hossca